Each night when you fall asleep
My arms are wrapped around you
You are safe

 

I kiss you on your forehead
Everything will be OK
I am here

 

Still there is a hole in your heart, a void
I cannot fill
You will

solitary soul

moving imperceptively

majestic bonsai

Are we there yet?
Of the father asked the son
On the journey to the one
Where the road is blocked for none

 

Are we there yet?
To the father said the mother
On the journey from the other
Toward true love for one another

 

Are we there yet?
Said the father to the one
Who has blessed him with a son
But the journey, it seems, has only just begun

I reach out to you
Seeking more than you can give
And find a mirror

 

—

 

Searching for ourselves
We peer through the looking glass
And find each other

 

—

 

Hand in hand in hand
Let’s walk this beautiful earth
Loving fearlessly

 

What about you

makes me want

to be enough

for you

to make you happy

to satisfy

you

your desire

your need

to be free

safe

with me

a child

perfect

Is it real?

 

What about you

drives you

to get up

each day

happy

to be alive

searching

for what?

Beauty

Adventure

A place

to fit in

It is real

Is it free?

 

What about you

makes you tick

drives me wild

not yet –

not me

you

Smart

Beautiful

Interesting

I see it

always

kindness

It is free

Is it love?

 

What about you

climbs

to where

you become

who you want

to be

reaches

for more

moves

forward

your life

means something

leaves a mark

makes you proud

happy

simple

It is love

Is it you?

Are we still in Eden?

I see trees

apples

and a snake

But something is different

I feel

banished

so much pain

This can’t be paradise

 

Yet I feel

grass

between my toes

aware

The Great What Is

still is

The sun

keeps coming

up each day

warm

on my face

I am awake

innocent

again

but not

naive

 

Eve …

why?

You need not

answer

to me

I now see

you

an apple

a snake

a bite

Sweet?

Bitter?

No

can’t go back

 

I see you

now

for what

you are

you

here

with me

Are you happy?

Can you be?

Can I help?

I don’t know

anymore

but I see

you

there

alone

(not quite)

and I want …

 

This moment

and this

and this …

You are

a garden

lush

wild

beautiful

Let go

now

What is

is

so …

be

 

Whew!

BREATHE

In …

… Out

 

Sun rising

Grassy toes

Hearts beating

Son sleeping

 

BREATHE

Whew!

In …

… Out

 

Pain passes

Hurt lasts

Bills come

Debts rise

 

In …

… Out

BREATHE

Whew!

 

Patience lacking

Virtue mocking

Sex given

Lies forgiven

 

… Out

Thirst for greatness, I avail

Embattled inner worlds await

Toiling troubled on the rail

Of stumbling puddles, forthright gait

 

Nonsense verbage, ornery stew

Words upon the haughty page

Apothec’ry’s fallacious brew

No foundation, pauper’s wage

 

Dealt a plate of shit to eat

Foolishly, I asked for more

My hero’s world devouring sweet

She lapped the shit up off the floor